I am horrified that I once that this was acceptable. I have no idea why I thought this was ok for me to live this way. This was taken right after my divorce. I was in a bad place and all I know I needed to do some serious house cleaning of myself. Believe it or not I was actually 50 pounds heavier than this picture. I dont have one without a shirt, but I was big country and miserable. Long story short on this post, I had dropped 50 pounds through running, and just not eating like a Viking. When my divorce hit I was 230 and was just devistated. My life was a real mess. Thorugh sheer depression I lost another 30 pounds, so I eneded up aroun 200 pounds. When I get stressed I walk. Lot of my friends were calling me Gump because I was walking so much, lol. Oh those were good times... not, lol!
Well as you would guess couple of months later I ended up gaining the 30 pounds back. I remember the day, I just said uncle. I remember saying to myself that I CLEARLY HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. It was then that I decided to go to Weight Watchers for help. Through their help and some dedication I was able to take off 52 pounds, and achieve Lifetime status. All that was just huge,and I have kept it off since. I ebb and flow but I dont let myself get to far from 178. Although I was thinner I was not lean, which is really my goal. I want to be ripped, and see what my body looks like at around 6% BF, currently I am at 12% with a weight of 180 lbs.
Looking at this picture is just sobbering to me. Never again will allow myself to be in that state.
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